Why don't I apply for this job, or that?
Because I'm afraid of not being good enough.
It's silly, really. The more I think about it. Because ultimately, the worst that can happen is that I never hear back about the position. I already don't hear back from positions I do feel qualified for, so why not take the risk?
Fear. I hate how crippling it is. The above is just one example of the many ways it debilitates me. Don't you just hate when fear summons the self-doubt demon?
I'm sharing this with you now because I'm taking a necessary step forward in my career path, branding and personal growth. Things that fear has served as a roadblock to on numerous occasions.
Here's that step. One of the proudest moments of my life was launching Fashion+Geekery. I'd found my very special niche in the world: blogging about high fashion that draws inspiration from pop culture. I gave the world a source like no-other.
- My focus was exclusively the designer market.
- I favored quality over quantity of posts.
- Often going in-depth into the history of a brand and breaking down a collection's influences.
- I offered analysis of fashion with the knowledge, experience and technical vocabulary of an, "insider," having graduated from a leading design school with a BFA in Fashion Design with a women's sportswear focus, being mentored by one leading American designer, while interning for another, etc.
- I even went the journalist route, reaching out to BlackMilk for comment after that debacle. Something no other blogger, geek fashion or otherwise, had thought to do. The interview was later picked up by TheMarySue.
At some point I lost steam. Extenuating circumstances aside, I've only myself to blame. I'm not as strong as I wish I was. But I'm making an effort.
I lost my way, but I'm pleased to say I'm coming back better than ever. This blog will now allow you to take that journey with me.
Fashion+Geekery is now TheDesignerGeek.com. As you can garner from the title change, I'll still be bringing you fandom-fulled fashions from time to time, but the focus is shifting largely to me and my personal growth. Now, what does that mean for you? Well, as far as content is concerned, it only means more.
- Designer Collection stories aren't going anywhere
- Portfolio progress posts
- Personal posts like this
And, coming soon, something I know you're all really excited for:
And that's just a few examples of what you can expect from me here. I stopped blogging many times in order to take care of myself and my more immediate needs. Then I realized that I could use blogging as a tool to do just that. For example: I really need a new job. So the hope is that this new "blogfolio," will eventually lead to that. Now, if and when that happens... you'll all be the first to know.
I've made it to the end of this first post on my new blog, grateful to have gotten over my fear of change. Ready to take on whatever fear comes my way next. If you've read this far, I want you to do the same.
What's one thing you've been afraid to do? What are you going to do about it? Tell me how you faced your fear in the comments.